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MomShirley
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Name: Shirley
Gender: Female
Interests: Learning more about the Lord. Spending time learning to love who He brings to me and to love me. Being the best Mom I can be.
Expertise: I'm afraid I don't have one of those.
Occupation: Homemaker and Recruiter for Am
Industry: Consumer Driven Health Care Di
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
9/6/2006
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| I can't believe it has been so long since I last updated! Days have been continuing on at lightning speed here. The kids are in Christian School and doing very well. They are loving the peers, the teachers and all the extra support they are getting right now is amazing. I have to admit that this year going to school is better for them than being homeschooled. I have been spending a tremendous amount of time getting my new business off the ground with a start up date around May first. (I pray). It will be an online Craft Fair for all those crafters out there who don't have an outlet for their crafts and don't have any idea how to sell them. The Name I feel the Lord has given me is "The Lost Arts Store." Most of us craft because it is our relaxation and each choose to do the thing(s) that help us to relax in a different way. We usually find unique things from sewing knitting crocheting beading making cards candle making rug making soap making scrapbooking clay art and so many other things. And then we hear all the others comments like, "I could never do that." "I wish I knew how to do that." "I would never have the patience to do that." oh and one of my favorites is, and used to be mine! "I'm not talented enough to be able to do that!" My sisters taught me that I was indeed talented enough "to do that" and now I'm trying to help others not only learn to do different crafts, but to sell what they do so they can continue to do them without breaking their budgets! I'd love all of your prayers as I get this venture off the ground on my own! Well not entirely, I have the Lord and he has been more help than everyone else combined. Not only does crafting relax you but it gives you a sense of pride and it can be a money source for single moms, struggling families, older children who need money for a Missions Trip. There are countless ways I hope this helps others. Learning all the laws and the ways in which things are done is going to be so much fun ! I just got my domain names and now need to find that certain someone who will create my whole site and help keep it updated for me. That's where the dough will fly out the door! But I really think this is the way the Lord has shown me where I am to be. I can continue to be 'a keeper at home', and do this business, and He can make it profitable and be my provider, my husband, and my father. It's a scarry thing to find yourself right on the floor with your hands up to God asking/begging for his help and mercy. But isn't that right where he wants us? I hope your day is a joyful one and to hear from some of you soon. Love MomShirley | | |
| It has been a long time since I wrote Alot has happened. In July my husband of 21 years left us I was the reason My illness has caused too many things to happen and he just couldn't handle them anymore. I'm not condoning what I did or what he did What is done is done, It reminds me of a saying our Pastor used to use: Sin will always take you farther than you intended to go Keep you longer than you intended to stay And make you pay more than you intended to pay. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Learning to live with "what is" has been the hardest part. I never really thought I could live without him I never really wanted to try either, but the Lord has shown me that I am a whole person all my own and I can live alone. The children live with their Dad half of the month then with me half the month. They have been put into a Christian School going to school for the first time in their lives was tough. They are in their 3rd week and doing very well. I spend a lot of time in a Hotel The LORD has given me perfect time for: humble quiet uninterrupted deep personal time alone with him. I've had to face my: selfishness pride arrogance denial hurtful words ungratefullness lying tongue anger bitterness adultery murderous heart and I'm sure He isn't done with me yet. But I'm gratefull to be here. That He hasn't given up on me. I've learned that I'm no longer: afraid of the dark of being alone of admitting my sin I love my time with Him now. As my mind and my heart heal I am growing into someone even I like. I'm looking outside of myself and seeing that there are a lot of things He has for me to do. There are a lot of hurting people who need what others must give. I pray that I remain faithful to Him and not to my own notions. Being bold enough to step up when He shows me the path. Please pray for us Thanks | | |
| Well I haven't kept this up very well. Life is running at such a fast pace I seem to never have time to even get here. I read all my subscriptions and rarely get to update mine. Sorry to anyone interested.
Well today is the big day. I have to have an hysterectomy as well as a bowel and bladder pin-up. I am terribly prolapsed and it is no longer an option. The problem is that when I had my reversal in 94 I didn't expect to ever HAVE to do anything against it.
Because of the psychiatric medications I HAVE to take, for my 'borderline condition' I can't try to become pregnant. That would be very neglegent.
None of the hormonal forms of Birth Control work because of the meds I take.
The non-hormonal options are IUD (I have had two and they both implanted themselves, so I am not a candidate for another)
All other forms are non-effective methods. Abstinance is NOT an option.
Due to the shape of my uterus (heart) it is completely prolapsed. So I HAVE to choose to pin it up every few years, or take it out.
I am so struggling with this.
Questions keep rolling around in my head~
'Is this taking my child bearing into my own hands?'
'Is this what God would want me to do?'
'It is so final and NOT reversable.'
I am praying for:
No complications to the surgery (at 3:30pm EST)
The children will do well with their Aunt Rose who will be staying with them during my hospital stay.
I will recover quickly.
I won't do anything to delay my recovery.
Please pray today and during my recovery and if you are, could you please let me know? Thanks, I appreciate it.
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| On a daily basis I am reminded of God’s greatness to me.
As I go through Therapy for this ‘Mental Condition’ I realize that everyone has at least one chink in their armor. Mine is in my Brain. One part that requires me to trust in and rely on God to help me make it through.
I am so grateful for the family that I have. God has placed the solitary in families. For their constant love and support as I learn to deal with this ‘thorn in the flesh’.
At first, after the accident I viewed this as a ‘life sentence’! I was sure it was given to me for something I had DONE! But as I grow in the Lord and relearn so many things that I once knew, I realize that our bodies are all made by the same Maker and that our brains can only handle so much. When a person has a blunt trauma to the head, there are 2 outcomes. Death or life. I am so grateful for the life He gave back to me. Also when you have a blunt trauma, there are other options. I am regaining my memory and my ability to handle situations as they come up. Each week I learn things I’m sure I knew before about life and love, and just people. But it’s exciting to be relearning them and in the process becoming ‘normal’ again.
I’m told that before the accident, I had a phenomenal memory ~ that’s hard to grasp, because now it’s a sieve~ but I don’t remember those memory skills. People’s names and remembering lists are very hard., But as I continue to teach 1st , 3rd, and 4th grades ~again! ~ I’m learning how to learn again. It’s a great feeling!
We have a friend who went through a blunt trauma and after a year is still not doing well. She has continued memory problems and many other mind and emotional issues. Please pray for her, her name is Julie. She needs salvation and healing of her mind and body.
I’m getting back into the organizing, cleaning and decluttering that I know must be an essential part of my home. I need everything right at my fingertips while I recover from my upcoming surgery, or the chaos will send me into a tailspin and life won’t work. The less stress, the better my brain works.
My sister-in-law, Rose (Rick’s widow) is staying with us until after the surgery recovery time is up. (About 8 weeks) I’d love to keep her longer. Since she’s been here I have realized how wonderful it would be to have a wife! A friend and companion that helps do all the things that I can not possibly get to in a day! The surgery is to be a partial hysterectomy with a bowel and bladder suspension. I am currently what you would call extremely prolapsed. The surgery date is March 20th. My younger sister is having the very same surgery, on the very same day, in the very same hospital, by the very same Doctor. We are hoping to have the very same room too!
Once my ‘overhaul’ is done I will be able to get back to the business of exercising. I have lost 30 lbs, and have 30 more to go. The last 30 will take a commitment to exercise ~those 2- 4 letter words I hate!~ and a bit more aggressive approach to my problem.
I’m learning and believing that I’m not useless, messed up, broken or unrepairable. God is using me just like I am. He is helping me to learn to live with what I have. Thank-You Lord.
For me, the Battlefield is in my mind. As I’ve recently read through Acts, and Genesis I see others who had such a battlefield and learned to keep on going. The bottom line is I have to remember that God is still on the Throne and that He is still in control. Halelujia ! (Did I spell that right?)
I have recently realized that The World can put any label on me they want, but the bottom line is, I should have been killed in that accident and God had other plans, so If I let Him, He can use me just as I am, wherever I am, to reach those who are there, hurting and needing His answers.
Big things I’m learning
1. God is in control.
2. Seek out how to be used of God every day and don’t overlook my own family.
3. What is - is. I can’t change it, but need to seek God’s help to learn to live with it.
4. God has a purpose for my live. I have to keep working toward fulfilling it.
5. Thoughts aren’t necessarily fact. Emotions aren’t necessarily based on fact. Seek out the facts and rethink things when the world looks like it is falling apart.
6. Stay in the Word, The truth will set me free.
7. Sleep, Eating, Exercise and my taking my medications are not my enemies. Together they can make life better for me and my family.
8. Free time at night after everyone is asleep, and in the morning before everyone is awake is not a ‘BAD’ thing. I need regeneration too. But I have to go to bed, sometime. ~ I stay up around the clock far too often~
9. Being afraid of people is a problem I can conquer. I need prayer for this and cannot be afraid to ask for it. So please pray for me about this.
Music has been ministering to my soul lately. I do a lot more driving than I ever have, about 3-5 or so hours a week, and for me that is a lot, considering I don’t have a job and I never wanted to get back into a car at one time! In switching from station to station on the radio (I used to hate when people did that!) I have heard some great songs.
I’d like to share a song that makes my whole being smile when I hear it.
~As a background, I have not always had the best relationship with my (3 youngest) children. I felt unable and very afraid to get close to them, afraid I might ruin them. I know now that those thoughts were just lies from the enemy and my relationships with all 3 of them is growing to be one day rock solid. Praise God, who can take our ashes and make beauty from them!
IN MY DAUGHTER’S EYES
By Martina McBride
In my daughter’s eyes, I am a hero.
I am strong an’ wise,
And I know no fear.
But the truth is plain to see;
She was sent to rescue me.
I see who I wanna be, in my daughters eyes.
In my daughter’s eyes, everyone is equal.
Darkness turns to light,
And the world is at peace.
The miracle God gave to me,
Gives me strength when I am weak,
I find reason to believe, In my daughter’s eyes.
An’ when she wraps her hand around my finger,
Oh, it puts a smile in my heart.
Everything becomes a little clearer,
I realize what Life is all about.
It’s hangin’ on when your heart has had enough.
It’s givin’ more when you feel like givin’ up,
I’ve seen the light; it’s in my daughters eyes.
In my daughter’s eyes I can see the future.
A reflection of who I am,
An’ what will be.
An’ though she’ll grow and someday leave;
Maybe raise a family,
When I’m gone, I hope you’ll see,
How happy she made me,
For I’ll be there, in my daughters eyes.
What a special song to me. It gives me a future and a hope. I hope to someday see my grand babies and see them in my daughters eyes.
I don’t remember much of my childhood, but memories are coming back as I spend more time with my siblings, and my Mom. Memories come and I see my girls doing now, the very things I was doing then! It’s so special.
I got down on the floor and played army men with my littlest boy for the first time in his life a couple of weeks ago! I really don’t know why I was so afraid to do it. It was harmless.
My littlest girl loves to play ‘finger people’ with anyone who will. I was the one in the wheelchair and she loved it. It is just a game she made up to take up lonely time. Very cute.
Last night I sat through ~for the first time~ the movie Peter Pan! And I didn’t fall asleep Dan! Possibly the first or second movie I have ever sat through without falling asleep! My concentration level is growing and I realized how important it is to take time to play! It only took me 46 years!!!
Enjoy your day.
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). Sometimes I'm in tons of pain and one of the kids will say, "Do you need some music or medicine mom?" I guess I'm cranky then 
. I'm trying not to be though. 
New life always brings such joy.